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Last night I nearly had a melt down because my egg mixture was oozing out of my crescent roll soufflé...Yes, I was THAT ridiculous. My husband kept repeating "It's okay, it's not a big deal, it's okay." Finally, at a loss for my apparent total lack of emotional control he said, " Did something else happen today?" To which I replied, "No!" providing the impression that I may have just jumped off the deep end. Sensing that reason had left the building he calmly went to take shower. This left me with my own thoughts as I attempted to figure out what the heck just happened. Stress. Stress just happened. I have a lot on my plate right now and apparently oozing egg was enough to push me over the edge....dumb. You know why I am stressed? Because I am afraid. Afraid of not being perfect and working everything out perfectly. Also, dumb. I wish I had an inspirational word right here about how to fix my insecurities but as I am still very much in progress I guess I will just have to say that I praise God for grace and a patient spouse as I work to grow into the confident, secure, gracious woman God desires me to be. But you know what? It IS okay. This morning I was reminded of one of my FAVORITE songs as a tween:
Click on the title to listen on Youtube: Rebecca St. James- OK
Go Rebecca St. James! At 13 I pretty much wanted to be her. Anyways....
This morning on my drive in to work I discovered a bleeding, pin sized wound on my finger that I have no recollection of inflicting....kind of like the red spot I discovered on my forehead last night. Seriously, that is why I always have to work extra hard to not bump into things during shorts season. I always look like a 10 year old because I manage to bruise or scratch my legs.
Happy Friday Everyone!
I haven't been outside yet, but I am not looking forward to the wind...I thought about wearing my hair down today, but while I was flatironing it all I could think about was how it would all be in my face...and the ponytail won out...
ReplyDeleteI love the picture!
Oh, Courtney - I find myself nodding at so much of this. The stress of life and wanting to be perfect - or things to be perfect - many of my tears have been shed over the stove/kitchen sink. You are not alone.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reminder of God's grace and His gifts of patient people in our lives.